…broken promises….

Saturday, July 29, 2006

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i just came back from a promenade style mg production; From Eve to Mary-walking with women. it was wonderful. true, some scenes did make me cringe and there were others in which i felt nothing for, but the effort the girls put in (my dear sister included) are commendable. and all in all the effect was that it resulted in the play having standards comparable to AC plays. and that is saying something. i enjoyed in particular the act: Delilah, Jezebel, Herodias and Juicy Host. it was funny yet truly insightful. and also the ingenious idea of separating the audience into two; by coming up with the red apple route and the green apple route (red or green apples were passed to the audience at the entrance), this being particularly significant as the whole play started with Eve and the serpent. having taken the green apple route, i cannot deny that i would have enjoyed myself as much had not it been for the serpent who was also our guide for the entire walk.

the moment that has been etched deep in my heart however, is none of the above, but the scene in which Jesus was made to bear the cross and made to walk to calvary with the roman soldiers flogging him repeatedly and the crowd crying widly. the cries of the women and the loud cracks that echoed as the whip made contact engulfed me and entered my heart. the pain of the crowd became mine, plusing as one, until it came to the point that i was close to tears. it was as if i was there itself on that fateful day. just as the sensation flooded me suddenly, it left as quickly, gone before i could fully grasp it; but not before it made a lasting impact on my heart.

give thanks for the Lord our God gave His only Son, so that he could pay the price of our sins and set us free forever more.

where is the him that i’m looking for… |10:45 pm|

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Monday, July 24, 2006

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i heard this song over the radio just the other day and i thought the lyrics were cool, so enjoy:

Everybody's Free (To Wear Sunscreen)

Wear sunscreen.

If I could offer you only one tip for the future, sunscreen would be it. The long-term benefits of sunscreen have been proved by scientists, whereas the rest of my advice has no basis more reliable than my own meandering experience. I will dispense this advice now.

Enjoy the power and beauty of your youth. Oh, never mind. You will not understand the power and beauty of your youth until they've faded. But trust me, in 20 years, you'll look back at photos of yourself and recall in a way you can't grasp now how much possibility lay before you and how fabulous you really looked. You are not as fat as you imagine.

Don't worry about the future. Or worry, but know that worrying is as effective as trying to solve an algebra equation by chewing bubble gum. The real troubles in your life are apt to be things that never crossed your worried mind, the kind that blindside you at 4 p.m. on some idle Tuesday.

Do one thing every day that scares you.

Sing.

Don't be reckless with other people's hearts. Don't put up with people who are reckless with yours.

Floss.

Don't waste your time on jealousy. Sometimes you're ahead, sometimes you're behind. The race is long and, in the end, it's only with yourself.

Remember compliments you receive. Forget the insults. If you succeed in doing this, tell me how.

Keep your old love letters. Throw away your old bank statements.

Stretch.

Don't feel guilty if you don't know what you want to do with your life. The most interesting people I know didn't know at 22 what they wanted to do with their lives. Some of the most interesting 40-year-olds I know still don't.

Get plenty of calcium. Be kind to your knees. You'll miss them when they're gone.

Maybe you'll marry, maybe you won't. Maybe you'll have children, maybe you won't. Maybe you'll divorce at 40, maybe you'll dance the funky chicken on your 75th wedding anniversary. Whatever you do, don't congratulate yourself too much, or berate yourself either. Your choices are half chance. So are everybody else's.

Enjoy your body. Use it every way you can. Don't be afraid of it or of what other people think of it. It's the greatest instrument you'll ever own.

Dance, even if you have nowhere to do it but your living room.

Read the directions, even if you don't follow them.

Do not read beauty magazines. They will only make you feel ugly.

Get to know your parents. You never know when they'll be gone for good. Be nice to your siblings. They're your best link to your past and the people most likely to stick with you in the future.

Understand that friends come and go, but with a precious few you should hold on. Work hard to bridge the gaps in geography and lifestyle, because the older you get, the more you need the people who knew you when you were young.

Live in New York City once, but leave before it makes you hard. Live in Northern California once, but leave before it makes you soft. Travel.

Accept certain inalienable truths: Prices will rise. Politicians will philander. You, too, will get old. And when you do, you'll fantasize that when you were young, prices were reasonable, politicians were noble and children respected their elders.

Respect your elders.

Don't expect anyone else to support you. Maybe you have a trust fund. Maybe you'll have a wealthy spouse. But you never know when either one might run out.

Don't mess too much with your hair or by the time you're 40 it will look 85.

Be careful whose advice you buy, but be patient with those who supply it. Advice is a form of nostalgia. Dispensing it is a way of fishing the past from the disposal, wiping it off, painting over the ugly parts and recycling it for more than it's worth.

But trust me on the sunscreen.

where is the him that i’m looking for… |3:08 pm|

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Wednesday, July 19, 2006

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its been quite some time since i last posted, and in the time between then and now ive written loads more entries in my head but, sadly, they never made it here. anyway, here's what's been happening in my life, if anyone's interested to know...

friday 14th july
met up with delphine today, went shopping at marina square, or should i say, tried shopping at marina square, since we tried on dozens of pieces of clothing but none of them seemed worthy enough to give us any reason to dig into our wallets. we bought shoes from novo though. i love my new shoes! they're so cute. my mum and sis hate it, but who cares? haha.. its comfortable enough, at least the back doesnt cut. it does squeeze my toes quite a bit, though its nothing a few pieces of plaster cant do. going shopping with del is FUN. we're just two mad, crazy people with nothing to do; two mad, crazy people tearing through shops; two mad, crazy people who keep getting staticed by each other. haha..

at 1130pm, my family and i went to watch pirates of the carribbean: dead man's chest. its not exceptionally good. and quite a let down after the first movie. and a disappointment considering i've waitied SO LONG for it to be released. but nonetheless, it was fun to watch, draggy but fun. and it was good to see all my favourite characters on screen, doing their stuff.
note to self: never choose to watch a 2andahalf hour long movie at eleventhirty at night ever again.

saturday 15th july
met up with the mg girls today. about time! we went to cafe cartel to eat. the ribs are good eh simin? lets go there and eat again! the highlight of the day, however, was meeting up with janice. i'm so glad you made it, i almost thought u werent coming already :D my sis still cant figure out the flash back game. haha. see, there's someone worse than me lor. (i took like almost half an hour to figure it out, during which time i know my gpsm was having the time of her life tricking me, making me confused, and laughing her hearts out. at me. hrump. haha...)

the brownie was good eh? we MUST meet up again sometime soon. promise?

today: thing unusual happened today, for me anyway. i went for driving. i hate directional change! even parking is much easier than it. i wonder where my instructor is. he better come back soon... i prefer him so much more to the other instructor i'm getting now. and i miss my car 7. oh, car 6 has got a cute, considerably young instructor. the lucky girl who got car 6! i want also! haha.

a terrible thing happened to one of my good friends today. i really hope she'll be ok soon. and that she remembers to contact me once the storm has passed. i really wish to be there for her, but she explicitly asked to be left alone and i want to respect her wishes. i just dont know how i can lend my support without going against her request. i just hope that everyone who reads this now will remember to include this friend of mine in their prayers. dont ask me for names, cos im not giving any. just help me pray for her k? thanks.

gpsm! you're going to thailand with some friends today.. have a fun time and make use of bangkok to do loads of shopping k? come home safely! i'll be missing you lots till then...

where is the him that i’m looking for… |4:23 pm|

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Saturday, July 08, 2006

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i went cycling at east coast today! mans. it was good. its been such a looonng time since i last cycled. and an even longer time since i last saw suyi.. and an even looonnger time since i last made simin go cycling. haha... i love the breeze in my face when i cycle.. its like im in an alternate dimension, with no worries whatsoever, kinda like flying; not that i know how its like to fly, but you get my gist.

we saw hon and her bf cycling along ecp too! it was cool, considering that i was wondering to myself whether or not we'd bump into them since her bf loves cycling and all. though i must say that hon looks very tired. and her face looks a little puffy. has everything been alright? i hope its nothing more than being overworked or smth, not lack of sleep thinking about stuff she shouldnt even be entertaining.

i hope suyi likes her belated bday present. i kinda left it in the car and my parents had to go all the way to clementi again to pass it to me when they realised it. plus they had already reached home by then. sighs. i feel so bad about it. heehee.

hey gpsm, cheer up k? i dont really know what else to say except that i'll always lend a listening ear whenever you need it. i hope you can make it on saturday, but if you're tired, dont force yourself k?

my butt really hurts now! but lets go cycling again k suyi and simin? next stop: sentosa??

-sleepy-

where is the him that i’m looking for… |10:15 pm|

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Sunday, July 02, 2006

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new layout!! nice nice?? still got a bit of touching up to go, but that'll have to wait, i suppose.

pharm camp tmw. sians. i hope it will be fun... after all im not a very camp person. but. ur attitude's what matters. so, im going to think positive. i'm going to have FUN!! haha. i just have to remember this:

yup.

oh, and a really yucky thing happened just now. i accidentally clicked on something whilst trying to open my favourites and suddenly this horrendous porn site opens out at me and now this disgusting eew eew eew photo is stuck in my head cos i accidentally glanced upon it whilst trying to close the damned window. somebody wash the picture out of my brain please. sighs.

hey yun and simin! i miss you both lots too.... lets all meet up soon k? the whole jing gang...! btw yun, when are you leaving for london (that is where you're going, right?)?

cant wait for thursday. i know everything will be alright in the end cos the Lord will provide for me, all the days of my life.

where is the him that i’m looking for… |10:51 pm|

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