…broken promises….

Wednesday, February 15, 2006

[[]]

i feel utterly sick. i cant believe what i had for dinner. and i cant believe i let myself eat everything! its just lots of oil, and fats... did i mention oil?? gag.

i dont know why i even let myself watch tv. all the dramas that im currently 'chasing' end sadly. lovers who belong together get separated; people die; its just terribly tragic. sometimes i wonder if im sadistic. why put myself through all those happy moments when i already know how horribly its going to end??? i'm just asking for it.

that moment in time was nice. i felt special for the first time in a very long time. it was just so genuine; no ulterior motive. like i was being appreciated for who i am. yes, it was nice. even if it was only for a split-second.

Every memory of looking out the back door

I had the photo album spread out on my bedroom floor

It's hard to say

It's time to say it

Goodbye, Goodbye

Every memory of walking out the front door

I found the photo of the friend that I was looking for

Look at this photograph

Every time I do it makes me laugh

Every time I do it makes me...

nickelback:photograph

where is the him that i’m looking for… |9:19 pm|

_____________